but no thanks.  I have been in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years now.  And I am ready to move on, but I don’t know how.  My head tells me to just block his number and delete all information I have about him.  I cry more than I smile when I think about him.  Days will go by with not a single word of communication from him.

I keep going back to the saying you accept the love you think you deserve.  I don’t deserve to be treated this way, but my history shows that I accept this sort of behaviour from the men / people that claim to love me.  My ex-husband ignored me for 26 years and I accepted it and made excuses for him.  In this LDR I accept it and I make excuses for him. My childhood memories are of being ignored by my parents.  Of my five children I have one that ignores me.

So how do I break this cycle?  Time to do some reading to figure it out.

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